Guilty

Typing this without my spec. So please ignore the typos. Couldnt sleep. Feeling guilty. I've cane V for the silly mistakes he made in the maths homework I gave. Should be 11 times but at the 7 stroke he started crying. I know my hubby was angry with me but he didnt say anything. I feel pity see him crying but i didnt say or do anything to stop him. Later after everybody slept i rotan myself to test the stroke. Shit!!! Painful. No wonder he cry. Need to be a bit lenient to him. But i dunno how to teach him. I need to force him to do the latihans. I've bought him alot of exercise books. If i didnt say anything then he wont do. Is there any idea to solve this problem? Sometimes i feel fed up and just want to let him do whatever he wants. Why should i bother. Then i feel bad for thinking like that. Maybe i will find a tuition class for him. It might make him dicipline. Whatever it is i wont take the rotan again. If there is fate that he would be a big shot then it will happen regardless to my caning or not.
If i had my own child, he or she might be 6 this year. Would i resort to caning in order to dicipline them? Hmmmm i dunno. My mum used to whack us with whatever object she have handy that time. Broom, cane, feather duster, water hose and buckets. I have experince in all this.:) i dunt want to use this old method in my life. So no more caning.


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone